sw:201 cw:165.8 ugw:120
Nothing feels as skinny feels. Nothing feels like knowing you’re the thinnest out there. The prettiest. The classiest. Like a freaking high fashion model.. they’re considered like fucking godesses. Do they binge? No. Do they overeat? Also no. Are you better than them to do so? Haha, that question was a joke, forget it. We all know you’re not; and yet, you still do.
Nothing feels like being able to ask for the smallest size in a store. To have a wide gap between your legs. Hipbones as sharp as a razor. Ribcage sculpted through your skin. Your profile as thin as a paper. Looking well in any clothing. Hell, looking damn good in a fucking plastic bag and make it look high couture. Do you need that meal? Of course not. Look at all that fat wrapping your bones, don’t you think it’s enough?
How many years do you still want to waste? Binging and eating and getting fatter by the day. It’s supposed to go the other way round but it’s no surprise when it comes to you.
People and the world are evolving and going forward and you are going backwards it’s like you’re sabotaging yourself. Killing any chance you have at happiness.
Losing weight has become your life and yet even that you still are failing at. All the friends you’ve lost, the social events you’ve skipped, the life you’ve missed, and all that for what? How much have you lost until now? 2 pounds? 4? Maybe you’ve even gained. Who the fuck knows under all those layers.. get your shit together and get serious. We both know your potential. How strong you can be. How can you control your own life, job and family if you can’t even control yourself around something as futile as food? Shame.
Oh, and all the clothes you’ll be able to wear. All the cute pretty classy shit you’ll be able to rock and actually feel confident in! Things you’ll choose to wear because you actually like and not only makes you look less fat. You’ll look like your own little model. Even though you’re not tall, you’ll look like it. You legs will look much taller without all that chubbiness. You’re too pretty to be fat. What a waste.
You know you were meant to fly, so drop the dead weight and fly babygirl.
2019 IS GONNA BE ALL ABOUT BEING A DANGEROUS MOTHERFUCKER!! DO NO HARM BUT TAKE ABSOLUTELY NO SHIT!! WEAR BIG OL’ COMBAT BOOTS, MAKE ART, DON’T APOLOGIZE FOR BEING YOURSELF, AND NEVER LOSE YOUR EDGE. and blasting some MCR definitely would be Recommended.
i will be thin. i will be skinny. my collar bones will stick out. my fingers will be slender. my body will be fragile. i will be a work of art. but first. i must fight. i must fight for what i want.
if you had to drop out of a class you are not a failure
if you had to take time off school you are not a failure
if you had to leave school for good you are not a failure
your worth is not determined by academia and this goes doubly so for disabled people and others for whom school is set against them
I love this but,. I’m actually a failure!!
If you want a fat ass, sure, eat that.
If you want flabby arms, sure, eat that.
If you want huge cellulite thighs, sure, eat that.
If you want stomach and back rolls, sure, eat that.
Sure. Eat that.
Fatass.
